"you're me, but so much weaker and more vulnerable where i am very definitely strong and resilient. of course, i'm not concerned with trivialities like 'friends' and 'happiness' because i'm satisfied with my role of impersonal cosmic significance, but why do YOU deserve to have friends who care about you? i won't think about this because the loneliness i've convinced myself i do not feel is far preferable to the confusion and pain of having to question my motivations or confront my own jealousy"