normie/weirdo genderfluidity @inarguableaxis@shrike.club

I’m sorry I’m so so sorry you can kill me for boygenius posting on shrike but hearing this song + combined with KateClaire on my mind is doing something to me

I’m fighting the yuri demons and ingrained tumblr fanbrain habits from my youth. I’m sorry. but look at this and tell me an edit wouldn’t go hard

if I ever start taylorswiftposting about lost characters on shrike however you CAN kill me. but I think losttwt and lost tumblr beat me to the punch there anyways

know that if I ever start mitskiposting about lost characters on shrike it was a battle I’ve been long fighting with myself and I lost

a look through the shrike account of a guy who is absolutely normal about Lost

haven’t even begun to get into Hurley’s entire arc on here but just know that it’s incredible and it means so much to me

you need to understand if I was a slightly different, probably worse and tiktokpilled kind of lesbian, there would be boygenius edits of kateclaire on tiktok already

No I mixed that up she rooms with Kate in the barracks, Locke is the one who moves in next to Claire after everything with Charlie

I don’t have access to Hulu right now I can’t check. This may have to wait until my rewatch

was Kate sleeping in Claire’s shelter next to her and Aaron after Charlie had his uh. rough moments in season 2. or did I make that up completely. it’s been so long since season 2. I feel like this is a detail that was small but real but I can’t remember and I can’t find it.

I cannot stop thinking about Kate and Claire. Maybe this is a side effect of having been cooped up in my house recovering from a cold for days, but I was so busy thinking about them I almost forgot to make lunch. I’m remembering moments in the earlier seasons and I need to rewatch everything (for multiple reasons). I have so many thoughts about them.

“It’s so sad June and Vriska never got to see Nicolas Cage as Grug” - Vriska

you needed all of them. and they needed you.

saw catboy ben linus

mothers. he can never escape them.

oh i'm thinking about the implications of the man in black being shot by kate... a lying foster mother

me dumb and only a few seasons into lost: ehhh idk how i feel about how so many of the woman have mother things going on, like there's other directions to go with women right?
me, wiser and further along in lost: no. no actually this is good, it's about the inescapable horrors of motherhood
then seeing crazy mom allison janney: it. it really is about lying mothers. as much as its about absent lying fathers. of course it started with THE lying mother.

it's two women with fraught relationships with motherhood, their own mothers, and it will never be about the fathers with aaron because the fathers are an afterthough at best, a threat at worst (like possessive charlie, a drunken jack, like kate's father). it's about the two of them, and the mothers they hate and the mothers they love and the mothers they made themselves together and apart, and how hard it is to share that and how much they need to share that

on claire's end "i've missed you for years. i trust you more than anyone. you stole the one reason i had left for living, for personhood. and you left me as everyone leaves. you come to save me and i have to try kill you now. to replace you. except then i need you to forgive me. i'm insane, bitter, crazed, not fit for my purpose anymore. you are better for him, and i hate and love you for it."

So I steal your motherhood and use it as a shield, as a way to prove my innocence, I get as close to being you as I can because who wouldn’t rather be a mother than be me?And it doesn’t work, you haunt me every day until I have to come back for you. Because I love you, but also because I can’t live with myself. You try to kill me. I know I deserve it.”