my gender is many things, my gender is fag, it's femboy, it's girl, it's trap, it's girl, it's a subversion of masculinity and an embracing of the femininity i enjoy and identify with without being subjected to the standards placed upon me by people who dislike me
it is contradictory in many ways and that is not only okay it is intended. there will be no resolution on it because it is in itself a contradictory mess of a system.