housing plans, -mh, venting
every time i think I've got a chance for an ideal move reality crashes it down
wtf was i thinking proposing "split an expensive ass home mortgage" to a bunch of disabled queers, of course that was gonna get shot down. jess you fuckin moron why do you ever get your hopes up
housing plans, -mh, venting
like. why the fuckin fuck does "living in a state that's not actively trying to kill me" have to be so fucking expensive. why are traumatized people like me trapped in the places that are worst for us why can't i just goddamn live?
venting
god this is what i get for not moving out when i was 18. everyone else my age has been struggling and learning how to survive for 15 years, meanwhile i'm learning in the moment and every little piece of complication just makes me fall to absolute pieces
housing plans, -mh, venting
@fenderjess No, you shouldn't detransition, and none of these things are entitled to want. ?Let me know if you ever want help figuring these things out.
@junebug what's there to figure out. living is expensive and I'm one of only a few of the people who'd be moving who even has a shot at earning enough to make it feasible and even that's a question mark. the more hard numbers i see the more it feels like even if i get out of fl the greater group will never make it to Portland.
@fenderjess A lot of this is coordination and planning. Genuinely, the best thing you can do is hit someone up who knows way too much about this shit and give them your exact situation. I can give you my thoughts, but like, I promise, there are ways out.
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then again I'm being a horrible entitled monster wanting things like "living with loved ones" and "having stable housing where i can both be myself and not fear getting de-housed without warning" so of course the universe is gonna punish me for my hubris. only white men get to have that.
fuck should i detransition? at least then my unearned desires might get fulfilled