alphy april egbert-tautology @internetFionna@shrike.club

WOW WE ALL HAVE WILDLY DIFFERENT RELATIONSHIPS WITH THIS BODY

ALSO WOW I CAN'T WAIT TO BE MOVED SO I CAN GET SOME FUCKING BINDERS AND MASC CLOTHING

HOPE YOU ALL LIKE FAT TRANSMASC KARKAT IN A TRANSFEMME BODY

hey so uh

you may see less of me until i have a new place secured and i'm moved into it

and you will probably see a lot more of terezi and vriska and kanaya and karkat

please be nice to them. we share memory and they know *gestures* y'all. just treat them like people who type a bit weird and have faces you may recognize.

thanks.

on the foot that's squaring up to kick me in the nuts: the persecutor/imposter syndrome/whatever the fuck is so loud with the "you're not actually plural, you're just faking" that my ears are ringing

this sucks and i want a hug real bad

ever since kanaya and kk showed up, it's been really easy for them to front and, ever since kk fronted on his own when i dissociated super hard, they've just

been going in and out of front on their own, without me there. going between each other without me

and on the one hand: cool! great. less frontstuck.

on the other hand: it's a lot to take in and every time i come back i want to cry

computers

we've been getting switchier lately, ever since kanaya and kk showed up, and it's really nice

and the positive reception to our drk fic amongst the other creatives has helped draw out moko and kakyu a bit

and it just feels

nice

to be comfortably plural

i love this system

and it loves me

the fans i did spend time around are, broadly, all plural and trans and queer and were all like "read godfeels"

so i did

and i'm really glad i did

so i finally got into homestuck in early 2020 thanks to prodding from @paulsrockinmastadon's roommate marcy nabors

and i think i read it at the best time in my life? it helped me recover from a really, really terrible time in my life

and also made me queerer

hey i wasn't home for the past several hours what happened

does anyone know where to get saltwater taffy in seattle that doesn't require me to smell fish

where do fat people get binders

Well The Tautology System Has Grown

i almost felt compelled to post "today as weird and interesting" but i think the "mundane days" ship sailed a while ago

LET'S GO MARINERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

hey so i don't get money until the 15th and i have like. $30? and that makes me Anxious™

if anyone could toss me a bit that'd rule

paypal.me/letao
cash.me/$internetfionna

holy fuck i will never get used to people saying something i wrote helped them figure things out about themselves

yet another system told me my DRK essay opened their eyes and just

oof. ow. my heart.

i want to cry.