several hiddn shots 2 the jest @projesterone@shrike.club

?????????

I'm noticing that sometimes i have a very short attention span and i have trouble focusing on things for even moderate periods of time. this is kind of fucked up, has anybody invented an illness about this yet

come on man

nobody ever gives Jesus credit for solving the world's first sokoban puzzle

what is up with people being such losers. i saw somebody post this under an anecdote about touching one's own penis after handling a pepper. it's not even that embarrassing

anybody on the internet: *shares an even minutely vulnerable or embarrassing personal anecdote*

some joyless fuck who is upset not everybody feels as much shame as them: "you couldn't torture this out of me bro"

Sunshock

Loading screen tip: "If you delude yourself then, for a moment, you can live in a better world!"

Oops.

oh fuck. i think i might uhhhh be in the negative with my bills

going back to this well today because tumblr decided i really like the sims 4, it showed me:

- post of somebody's "give me 6 townies to give a makeover!!!" like those drawing prompts
- "here's my simsona!!!!"
- a tattoo mod

like, persistently just showing me these posts. why did it decide i like this???

also, not to be a hater (lie), but at that point why the fuck even write The Last of Us fanfic. it's not about zombies anymore. the guy has been divorced from his origins. why does it have to be joel and not just like. your own guy you think is fuckable

i hate every algorithm that serves me content on principle, but tumblr's is so specifically incompetent. it started showing me posts people are making about "ALP" which i had to figure out stands for "a lover's pinch" which is i guess a The Last of Us professor AU Joel x reader fanfic?

what in the world could have made you think that's something i wanted to start seeing content about

annoying behavior when somebody uses language of concern and "uwu please don't do things that are Harmful to lesbians" to insist that bi Lesbian is a demonstrably Harmful label

and in support of this fact they post a carrd with 20 pages that boils down to "uwu I'm a linguistic prescriptivist"

i feel like if i really wanted to dig my teeth into it i could criticize a lot of little things about it, some weird elements of pacing, etc, but

every time i watch it i end up being so fully charmed by what the show is doing that i can't really hate it for any of its flaws, even as the plot twits in knots and convolutes itself in the latter half. it just charms the fuck out of me with its presentation and imagination, and i can't really bare my fangs against it

just finished a rewatch of kaiba -- my third or fourth? what a fucking fascinating show

we're smoking this shit called Vancian Magic. gets you so high you can only do 4 things a day.

we're going to a show at a bar tomorrow night and the girl is teasing me about seeing her in a fishnet shirt i haven't seen her in before... i hate being weak to women...

(i love being weak to women)

I'm not ACTUALLY at a dead end and I recognize this. I feel motivated to improve things. I know there's gotta be a path to do so.

At the same time, a lack of energy is one of the most frustrating problems to deal with, like, how can i take the action to make things better when i don't have any actions to use for this?