having a minor nervous breakdown over the prospect of telling my current orientator-to-be that i might not want to stick around his research lab actually now that the call for the master's program has started. i might develop an ulcer by monday
i really wish i was better at handling these sorts of situations. its so sucks to feel like a shaking chihuahua whenever i have to communicate a decision made with my best interests in mind that Maybe someone will not like to hear. and the very worst part is that im probably making it a way bigger deal inside my own head than its likely going to be <--- self-affirming mantra
my one weakness! the prospect of pissing off an authority figure in my life and committing some sort of unspoken academic social blunder without meaning to